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The Pandemic Diaries XI

A reminder on protecting your emotional energy So, 2020 has been a …. you can say almost anything about this year and it would probably be true. It’s been a lot of things, but one thing I can say is that out of suffering often comes growth and this year has been a big yearContinue reading “The Pandemic Diaries XI”

The Pandemic Diaries Part X: The Beginning of the Holidaze

It’s no secret. I am usually a miserable bitch this time of year. My poor mother, who I am currently living with, loves this time of year. Food, family, happy memories and nostalgia I think are what drives her love of it. I think she remembers the happy memories from her youth and also sheContinue reading “The Pandemic Diaries Part X: The Beginning of the Holidaze”

The Pandemic Diaries Volume IX

*sigh* Dude. There are a lot of people who are feeling relief, hope, joy, I don’t even know, right now in this moment. When the election was called for Joe Biden last Saturday, I cried for a moment, woke my mom up with the good news, then sighed and went back to the feeling ofContinue reading “The Pandemic Diaries Volume IX”

The Pandemic Diaries VIII: The Election

Hey, it’s been a week. Or a year. I don’t know. September felt like the longest month. October was also really long. This last week has been forever. All I know is that none of us have slept well, our bodies are aching from all the stress we are holding onto, and we don’t dareContinue reading “The Pandemic Diaries VIII: The Election”

The Pandemic Diaries VI

As of this post, the world has surpassed 1 million dead from COVID-19. The United States leads with 205,000 deaths. We all know that both of those numbers are underrepresented. Mr. Trump’s tax returns were leaked by the New York Times showing us what we already know. He’s a fraud and he paid less taxesContinue reading “The Pandemic Diaries VI”

The Pandemic Diaries V: Armageddon

I started writing this post on August 30th, after a horrific week in which Kenosha, Wisconsin became the front page of the Black Lives Matter protests because YET ANOTHER black man was shot multiple times by police officers for existing while black and he LIVED TO TELL THE TALE. Then white supremacists descended upon theContinue reading “The Pandemic Diaries V: Armageddon”

Nostalgia Post: Childhood Favorite Movies

Willow You know, it’s kind of amazing how many fantasy films feel like they take place in Middle Earth (Tolkien Universe). Our unlikely hero is Willow Ufgood, a Nelwyn who lives in a village of Nelwyns where he is basically a birthday party magician who dreams to become the greatest sorcerer ever. Basically he isContinue reading “Nostalgia Post: Childhood Favorite Movies”

The Rage

trigger warning: sexual harassment, assault If you ask any woman about her first sexual encounter, there is an extremely high chance that her experience is negative, and it happened when she was uncomfortably young. I am no different. https://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2018/02/21/587671849/a-new-survey-finds-eighty-percent-of-women-have-experienced-sexual-harassment I spent last week having to process a traumatic event from twenty-three years ago, one thatContinue reading “The Rage”

The Pandemic Diaries IV

All of these emotions seem to come in waves. Sometimes I rage like a storm at the world that is so wrong, sometimes I feel trapped like a caged animal who is forced to perform at the circus, all while possibly exposing myself while no one seems to hold my life in any regard whatsoever.Continue reading “The Pandemic Diaries IV”

2020’s Awful Playlist Continued

The 90’s. Alternative music’s golden days. “March of the Pigs” is really on the nose. Also, it’s really angry with sweet, sarcastic breaks in between. “All the pigs are all lined upI give you all that you wantTake the skin and peel it backNow doesn’t that make you feel better? The pigs have won tonightNowContinue reading “2020’s Awful Playlist Continued”